Darnay's Condemnation

I went blank. I blacked out. I couldn't feel, see, or hear anything or anyone around me. My heart sank and it was as if I would never be able to love again. The pain I felt when the sentence of my beloved husband was pronounced, was unlike anything I've ever experienced. I realize now that I hadn't just gone blank, I had fainted, right there in front of everyone. People described it as looking like I had "dropped dead". But honestly, at that moment in time, I wished I had just been dead. Anything would be better than having to deal with what was just announced. I made absolutely no sound. I couldn't speak; I couldn't breathe. However, somewhere deep down inside me, I knew that it was wrong for me to react this way. No matter how uncontrollable it was. I knew that I had to be strong for my husband and not add to the misery that he is already having to endure. I was the only person who could support him during a time like this, so I pulled myself together. This thought seemed to wake me from the shock I was in and I immediately reached out to Charles. All I wanted to do was embrace him, just one last time to feel him close to me. Thankfully, Barsad was there and allowed us one last farewell before we would be separated. All I could do was think about how much I loved him and how hard it would be without him. But I knew deep down that we would be together again soon in heaven.